Daily Card for 4/23/20 – Opening to Love
We chase it, we fear it, it gives meaning to life and overpowers our logic. We imprint it’s otherworldly qualities onto ordinary people and withhold its real magic from ourselves. It is the most beautiful and maddening thing there is out there.
You may think you are wide open while you chase down romantic love and bleed with loneliness but you are blocking the everyday love that will nourish you and lead you to bringing the right kind of people into your life.
Of course it doesn’t feel like you’re blocking it because you still love your family and friends even though they don’t fill that particular void. You may even smother them a bit, trying to distract yourself from that void but you’re only keeping yourself from your peace because you’re afraid of the pain that comes before that peace can be achieved.
I don’t write this because I read it somewhere, I write this because I’ve experienced it. I’ve sacrificed my self worth for love that was not returned. Never measuring up in the eyes of my mother and ever after struggling to be enough in both romantic and platonic relationships. Hell, I still struggle with my self worth at times because not only does it require the initial setup, consistent maintenance is vital.
I think the key with love, both internal and external is the same as just about everything else in life. You have to really emphasise your gratitude with what you have and leave the rest to the universe. The best place to start is with yourself. Stop focusing all your energy on the things you don’t have and don’t like about yourself and let your brightness shine through.
You are dearly loved and now it is time to work on loving yourself. I wrote a Daily Card a few months ago, The Mirror, which might further help you in the process.